Sunday, August 21, 2011

There's a hole in my heart that can only be filled by you

Lady luck is not on our side these days. Ruby is scheduled for open heart surgery September 14th. They anticipate about a 7 day hospitalization, with the first 3 days in ICU. I don't think the hugeness of this has really hit us yet. I'm sure when we kiss her goodbye (I prefer, "see you soon") at the hospital it will really sink in. I get choked up when I think about seeing tubes and wires coming out of her and her perfect skin forever scarred down the middle of her chest. I try not to think about what could go wrong and focus on the thought that this could all be over soon. No more worrying about her heart and hopefully getting back to eating again soon.

Ruby is doing very well for basically being in controlled heart failure. We had to boost up her meals with formula as her little body was burning through her calories and she had stopped gaining weight. She's bulking up quickly now and even showing a bit of chubbiness in her thighs. She's holding her head up better every day and rolling over every chance she gets (non-stop, and then gets upset because she doesn't want to be on her stomach).

We've started explaining to Luna that Ruby's heart is broken and the doctor is going to fix it. She asked if it was because she jumped on Ruby. Then she told me she was a big girl, not a baby, and not a doctor. I said "okay" and moved on.

We fall more in love with both of our girls everyday. For as many challenges parenting presents (we drink a lot), these two little ladies make it worth it.

If you are sitting there wondering what you can do to lend a neighborly, loving hand during our hospital stay, we would love any donations of coffee cards (they've got sandwiches and yummies too) to nourish our bodies while we try to keep our spirits up and take care of our baby girl in the hospital.

Please keep our family in your thoughts and prayers.

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